I don’t know, man. Just read it I guess.
First, let me say that this isn’t a complaint thread. I love this game. I haven’t been this happy with a game in a long time. Still, I can’t seem to create I character I love. I’ve created dozens of characters. I’ve gotten as high as 27 and broken the level 20 barrier at least 4 times, but I end up deleting those characters and trying again.
Why? I want to love my character. I want my character to be perfect. This game is so much about the characters we create, and I want to create exactly the character I want, but I can’t seem to do it. I’ve been subscribed since the first day of Early Access, that puts me at 2 months, and I’ve played for at least a couple hours every day. Still, I’ve never been past the level 25 planet on any character.
I’ll start out, and at first I’ll love my character. But then, I’ll get a ways through the game, and something will start bugging me. It will be a cosmetic issue, or a character issue, or something with my companions, and I’ll just have to stop and try to create a character that best addresses all my issues, but I can’t seem to make that perfect character.
First of all, I want to play a female character. Full disclosure, I’m a guy. All my favorite characters from TVs and movies are women though. I find female characters more interesting than men. Also, I prefer a lithe and agile aesthetic than a large and powerful one, and I think women fit that better. It has nothing to do with who I am in real life, little to do with wanting to stare at a girl when I play, and everything to do with the characters I like.
I am straight however, and although my character is not me, I would still rather pursue women in the game. My character is going to interact with characters I find interesting, and I only find women romantically interesting. This leaves me in a bind, because same sex romances aren’t available.
This means I have to choose between either: 1) Making a male character I find bland and less interesting and pursuing a romance with an interesting companion or 2) Making a female character I like and find interesting and cool, but being limited to either no romance or a romance story I’m not very interested in.
Also, if I do play a straight female, I want her to be flirty, but it seems when I play female characters, they don’t get as many flirt options as males do. Smugglers and Agents are appropriately more aggressive, but still less so than most male characters in my experience thus far.
I want to play a Jedi Knight, because I recently listened to the Revan audio book and it really teases the Jedi story, but I want to romance Kira and a male Jedi is about the blandest character in the game. I’d eagerly play as a female if I could romance Scourge, but I don’t think that’s the case, I’d be stuck with Doc, who seems kinda boring. Also, as much as I like T7, he’s sorta a boring first companion.
I want to run around with the female togruta the Inquisitor gets, and I want to romance her, but then I’d have to be a male light side sith inquisitor, a character that I don’t really like. If I were female, I’d still want to be Dark Side, so I still couldn’t have her around as a buddy.
If I were a Knight, I’d love to play as a Miraluka, but most of their masks suffer really bad clipping problems. I know I couldn’t deal with that. Twi’leks, who I also like, have their own clipping problems with their lekku.
The stealth classes are cool and I love playing them, I have a history with Stealth classes. But I can’t stand being able to see my eyeballs and teeth hovering in my head while in stealth. I should never see my eyeballs through the back of my head, that’s just creepy.
Now, I do wish these issues I have were different but I don’t mean to detract from the game. I think the game is amazing. I have a history with MMOs that doesn’t make this behavior very weird. In any MMO I Play, I always fill a server and often more than one with characters. I love alts. On my main server on any MMO I play for a long time, I’ll delete and create characters regularly. Still, this is the first time I’ve loved a game but not been able to settle on a main before going alt crazy.
I’m sure I’ll settle on a character eventually, but it’s far past ridiculous. I blame myself for being so picky, but I just can’t seem to help it.
Perhaps I need to just play a few characters all at once. I was reluctant to do that, because I didn’t like the idea of playing alts before they could contribute to my Legacy, but here I am, dozens of alts later, and still no Legacy.
If I had to sum up how I feel, it’s that the game has so much awesome to offer, that I roll a character I think I’ll love, but then as I get used to it, the flaws and shortcomings shine through and the grass on the other side of the fence starts looking mighty green.
So tonight, I’m trying once again to create that perfect character, the one that best gives me access to the most things I want and with which I can finally earn a Legacy before I start raising my stable full of alts. Wish me luck.
I just thought I’d share my experience with the game, and was wondering if anyone else feels similarly.